Work realli has been a high stressor for me lately. Other than the fact that i’m still on this learning journey where i needed some guidance from colleagues. But they can be rather nasty passing crude remarks for being "incompetent". It could be incompetence to them but it’s a "first-time attempt" to me. Therefore instead of passing crude remarks and telling the whole world about it, that energy should rather be save to guide & teach than turning it into negativity on their part. "I’d rather appear like a fool for 5minutes than be a fool forever", i told myself. And swallowed the negativity. On the outlook, i’m sunshine. But deep inside i’m swelled.
It’s a lesson learnt day by day. The bitching, the nasty words and everything about it. But too much negativity jusT BREAK the bottle. I couldn’t take it when one of my nicer colleague approach me and told me there’s too much negativity she heard going on & she doesn’t like people talking about me. I just broke down & let it all out. She encouraged me & told me i’m doing fine. And she agreed to the fact that instead of wagging their trap, it should be turn to guidance instead. At least i had somebody who believed in my own theory.
I wish some people would understand that Work is NOT about bringing one down. NOT about highlighting their mistakes to the whole world & make a hell of a big deal out of it. It’s working together as a team & guide each other. Yeaa GUIDE. Passing crude remarks just ain’t working. Bringing a person’s morale & self-esteem down to subzero ain’t the trick.
I broke down 4 times today. And worked with a low mood reflecting on people around me. They are nice up in your face but who knows what they do behind your back. I’m sure there’s so many backstabbers in this world. If we perish them from this world, then life ain’t that interesting, isn’t it?
NM talked to me regarding this matter. And told her abt this. She encouraged me to be better because she’s confident about me. "You’re 80% there, i need to push u another 20% and make u perfect!", she said. Yea… it seems that people do see light in me. Even the most hardworking person break down at times.
It’s one of those moody times i’m having.
Have a read of this: - It made me feel better.
Have the courage to appear foolish, for the real fools are those who never attempt anything. Have the courage to make mistakes, for they can teach you like nothing else can.
Have the courage to take action. For even though your actions carry the possibility of failure, if you never act then you are certain to fail.
Have the courage to live each day fully, with enthusiasm and a generous spirit. Though there are many problems in this world, there are a whole lot more positive possibilities.
Have the courage to do what is right instead of what is easiest or most convenient. It will earn you the respect of others and, even more importantly, the respect of yourself.
Have the courage to see and accept things for what they are. That will put you in position to make a real difference.
– Ralph Marston
