:. juz noreen .:

U disappoint us with your actions. The firmness, the discpline, the "i can live happy with/without you in my life" attitude. The actions of an independent Strong woman.

WE are right and u refused to listen. When a JERK start treating u like shit and they DON’T care, u leave ‘em.. YES FOR GOOD. For being a JERK, he don’t deserve a woman like u. And you don’t deserve to be treated bad by a JERK like him. Throw their freaking stuff away.. delete his hp number, his home number, delete him from your friendster.. his msn, every single point of contact. GET RID OF that JERK FOR GOOD.

A woman deserve to be treated with pride, respect and be loved. Show e JERK u can life INDEPENDENTLY without him. And yes, What goes around, comes around. May he get his retribution!

He mess with u, he mess with the rest of us. Now the family is involved. We are behind you because WE CARE. You can make friends with anybody you want.. EXCEPT HIM. We CARE because we went through our own share of JERKS.

U disappointed us, the family. For not showing you can live as an independent woman WITHOUT that JERK. For not MOVING ON.

"Kalau dah ludah, jangan dijilat balik!"

"Once u spit, don’t lick it back!"

Then again, u decide - it’s your life.

Hurt once, it’s his fault. Hurt twice, it’s YOUR fault.

What’s Your Perfect Major?

  Looking @ Oneself By A Different Perspective:

P.S. I make a fugly Caucasian man.. *hahs*

Isn’t it a wonder how one can live in a world of pretence knowingly things happens in reality but denies the actual fact, that it did happen.

Self-denial or Living in a world of pretence?

How does one again, pretend they’re happy but in actual fact that they are feeling the total opposite.

Then again, portraying a “Front Stage” and hiding your “Backstage”.

Shakespeare crafted the famous sentence "All the world is a stage, and all the men and women merely players".

Social psychologist Erving Goffman had a similar dramaturgical analogy. Familiar?

People show how they want to be seen. He’s the actor. And other people like what they see. They’re the audience. An actor will only show their “frontstage” – how others see them. And Audience would love to see an actor put on a good show. Thus does it make the actor a freaking liar? Is it wrong to enjoy a good show?

In order to have a good show, An actor wouldn’t portray themselves in front of an audience. What the audience didn’t get to see is their “backstage”. The reason for doing so? Not being able to grasp the fact the show on stage will be less than a mediocre?

People lived in a world of pretence, and others self-deny. I Questioned the unanswerable.  Hoping the truth will be answered by that one. To that one – Why? Be in a state of self-denial.

This artificial, willed credulity of Human plays happens in Life. Which makes us all…? Liars. Pretenders. Deniers.   

This week is Food Week!

My hands had the "cooking-itch Syndrome" so it’s back to the kitchen for some nice-smelling food MADE WITH LOVE by .. yours truly.

I was inspired by a friend whom i lost along the way.. who once made me this dish fer me @ his place. Not wanting to share his "secret recipe" , i made a trip to ma fav. place in da web - google.com

Guess wad ? It’s Macaroni & Cheese! I would say it turned out pretty well. Baked 2 trays of it… Extra cheeseeeee. It’s easy to make & it’s fast. =)

After one successful attempt, i still had that itcH to bake moreeeee! So wads next…

So the following day… was Brownies Day!! So chocolate lovers, love me! i added like extra cocoa while making it, with melted choc on top of the brownie  once its done… topped with m&ms. According to Din, ma food critic(mcm faham).. it tastes juz right.. Hoho.

I won’t say it’s successful bcoz da choc ain’t perfect enough to my liking. I like it even more chocolaty. And it was mistaken fer a "cake" by ma male cuzz ( which then i got to know that ma brownie went all the way to yishun) albeit it’s a job well-done fer a first-timer. Beginner’s luck. Pfft.

Kindda spongy bcoz i added extra eggs.. i was talking on da phone.. while carrying the egg tray.. and it dropped on da floor.. so wad da heck.. i added the broken eggs in ma recipe. Hahas! Thus explained da spongy texture. (the eggs are clean fyi) I promise it won’t happen again.=P

This post is to my 2 new special friend i had known within a mere of 2 weeks. Believe it or not, i had known so much about them within a short period of time. But they had a special effect on my life. So to show my appreciation, this is just fer them.

Who am i talking about: KyRacer & Din.

Aite these 2 lunas are realli a great company & affected my life in a way or another…

Baby: Known of ur existence but we didnt had the chance to get to know each other. Now that we’re close, i knew we would click purrfectly. From the brazilian (feel sexxyy)… to the shopping… to the midnight movie… to da sleepover @ ma place… and not to forget the endleSs yackin’ sesSions til we fell asleep/goin to e shop tak mandi!/making breakfast 2gether/sentosa trip. Wahh  sounds like a future bf to me already la u. To the special bond we’ve had compared to e bond u’ve had with ur other half’s friends (=P).. this is definitely a friendship made to treasure. And for a person like me who always have trouble trusting gurls in particular… u sail into my list.. up to my Top 2 in da gurls’ list. Heh heh heh. And she rides & drive as well… Gurls with attitude….. Biker chics all da wayy!

Din: What can i say, we clicked from the moment we started sending msges-msn-meeting ups. Knew baby frm this dude. So i gotta thank u fer that. He’s one funny lad & this aquarius is  definitely a keeper(if u know what i mean). Sporty, adventurous & never fail to make anyone laugh. I found ma farting and burping partner already! Muahaha. But he’s still the kentut O.C. Din is definitely my special friend.. And yea like Baby, i appreciate having him part of my life. N yea, my new ikea cupboard is a satisfying effort built by Din & me! Loving it. Thanks fer ur help.

Well i can be veri emoooootional.. but hey! What can i say, i appreciate small things in life. So yea, this entry is just fer the both of you…….  Hugs from me to both of yaaa! Don’t forget to gimme one the next time i see u guys again… =)

Alright something creepy has been goin on in the ward again.

ONE: The oxygen flowmeter "popped" out frm its socket on its own in the middle of the night. And the weird thing is that it didnt make a single sound and we only found out when the patient start to wheeze.

TWO: This patient of mine was having ESBL (in short an enzymes that are resistent to antibiotics & it spreads by human contact)  & she needs to be isolated. So we place her at isolation bed 2. She started crying saying she’s afraid & begged to be put back to her old bed. Probably she saw that "lady in white with black hair" sitting by the sink lookin at her. *hair stands*. hahs

Aite every patient who ended up in that room, mind u even those of a sound mind eventually "sees" her.   

Shits like this happen all the time. I can make a ghost story book from all these experiences…

Cool thang!

How do you make someone not fall for you?

When you intentions are good. Things go unexpected. And unexpected things come your way. Beautiful things that you expect it to come probably one day. But not now. Not today, not this very moment.

But all you did was just being yourself. You. Because you’re comfortable being you, and being with that  person. That the person sees who you are.

When the person expresses their feelings for you, although you don’t want to hear it. Not now, Not at this moment.. You gotta face it.

What will you do? To make someone not fall for you? Tell me now…

I’m sure some of u have come across this. But read again:

To My Friends Who ARE SINGLE:

Love is like a butterfly. The more u chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts. But love’s only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.

To My Friends Who Are NOT SINGLE:

Love isn’t about becoming someone else’s "perfect person". It’s about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.

To My Friends Who Are The PLAYBOY/PLAYGIRL TYPE:

Never say "i love you" if you don’t care. Never talk about feelings if they aren’t there. Never touch a life you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest a guy can do to a gurl is to let her fall in love when he doesn’t intend to catch her fall and it works both ways.

To My Friends Who Are MARRIED:

Love is not about "It’s Your Fault" but "I’m sorry". Not "Where are you" but "I’m right here". Not "How could you" but "i understand". Not "i wish you were" but "i’m thankful you are".

To My Friends Who Are ENGAGED:

The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how good you are to each other.

To My Friends Who Are HEARTBROKEN:

Heartbreaks last for as long as you want as cut as deep as you allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.

To My Friends Who Are AFRAID TO CONFESS:

Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But it hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.

To My Friends Who Are STILL HOLDING ON:

A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and  fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn’t worth it. If he isn’t worth it now, he’s not gonna be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.

To All MY FRIENDS:

My wish for you is to find a man/woman whose love is honest, mature, never-changing, uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish.

"Nurse, Nurse! Can u please see my mother. She’s UNCONSCIOUS"

"Be right there. Please wait at the bed side, sir."

"Ah-Ma, Ah-Ma. (open eyes)."

Hmm.

Fcuk. Don’t waste my time.